The storm is over me now

"I was sure by now God
You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
 As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain "I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives And takes away
 And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm I

 remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
 How can I carry on If I can't find You..."
-"Praise You in this Storm" Casting Crowns

 This song over the past couple of days has been a song that has come to my mind. Between my work situation and recently finding out that my 3rd roommate is unhappy and moving out and not telling anyone at all is a lot to handle. I am envisioning my life as the winds blowing around and the rain falling and I am looking around trying to find my way. I keep wondering where is God. But I know like the song says, I can barely hear him, but he is with me. He is here and he is helping me through this. I keep thinking he is trying to grow me, but I just can't handle too much more. I thought this would be the tipping point, but I think after the roommate issue, that was the tipping point. I know everybody is life has issues and I feel bad sometimes about sitting here thinking about my issues and being selfish, but everybody's life is different. It is like my bible verse yesterday said: "Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good?" - 1 Peter 3:13. We will see how everything plays out, but I am crying out to God saying, I can't do this anymore, I can't take this and I need him to take this away from me.