Rough times...

So not only am I learning how to trust God all over again and know that everything is going to be ok, I got sent home from my placement today. I mean I felt fine this morning beside not getting enough sleep. I was standing outside with the kids and was starting to sweat at 9:30 this morning...so that should be a sign that something was wrong. So my teacher felt my forehead and another teacher did the same and I went to the nurse and I had a low grade fever. 99.4. And I told her I took medicine this morning so she said that it could be worse than that. So the nurse sent me home. I have taken a nap and it helped a little but I just want to sleep some more. I don't want to do anything. I want to ignore the pain I'm feeling with me being sick, but also with everything else going on. I wish that things could have been different. I miss him, and I wish he knew how much I wanted to talk about it and work through it before it came down to this. Wish we could have come to a mutual agreement. You always wonder what happens when somebody does this to you, and it feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. I have cried so many tears I know it's not going to fix anything so I think I'm going to cry when I need to but besides that, I'm going to hold my head up high and work through this. I still like him...more than he probably knows...and more than I could probably express. It's hard because I was afraid to get hurt and I want to shut down on him and then I wanted to make it work....I wanted it to last...next week was 8 months....not a day wasted. I feel pain that I have never felt before, pain that I wish upon nobody , and pain that I wish could be taken away with an I'm sorry...


There are many songs I'm listening to right now because this is how I handle things like this. But anyways, I'm going to work on some homework now and see what I can get done and hopefully I'm well enough to go to my placement tomorrow...the kids were making me feel better about everything....

When you need HIM the most....

You always wonder....why don't I praise God in the times that my life is great? Why don't I give him the glory for the times my life is going good? Why do I always seem to run to Him when my life is in shambles...when everything is going wrong...when the unexpected happens. That is how I feel right now and the one person I need to the most is HIM. I need to trust in HIM know that he did this for a reason and that everything will be ok. I need to understand that my God is a perfect God and I want to blame Him for seeing me hurt and for hurting me but He did not do this. I do not know his reason behind this...maybe there was not a reason behind this...but God has something for me. And I'm confused the most right now...

Busy...yet productive day

So today was Columbus Day and since I am doing placements in the public school system, I got the day off! Awesome! haha! =] I woke up later than I wanted but thats ok. I am almost done with the note cards for my two midterms on Wednesday and Thursday. But I still have this take home assignment which I need to finish before tomorrow so the Special Education can look at it tomorrow and see if I did it right, then I have an IRIS module, and math WS to do. But I have until CSI: Miami goes off at 11. But I'll be ready for bed by then so all I have to do is hop into bed and get to sleep.
I have not talked to Garrett really all day. We are trying not to text each other and have some more reasons to talk to each other or email each other and so it is different. But I was a little more focused on my work and now I am a little distracted but I will re-focus as soon as I finish writing this. And I think I'm almost done because I have a little more work I need to get done tonight befor I go to bed. Where do the days go when you are out from school and not working? They all seem to disappear too soon.
On another note, we are replacing our floor in the kitchen with ceramic tile. So this is interesting to have the kitchen in the living room, the dishwasher, washer and dryer in the garage, and having to eat in the piano room because you can't put anything on the tiles. Definitely different but it is looking good. =]
Anyways, I'm already for this week to be over and ready for the weekend. Think we are going to the pumpkin festival and hike up Stone Mountain on Sunday, and maybe go bowling with Karissa (from my classes) and her husband on Saturday if our schedules work out. Not sure about Friday yet, but I am working 3-7 so maybe I'll do something. Who knows? Well off to finish hopefully a good portion of homework. Have a great night! =]

Walk it Out

I am sitting in the library at Georgia State listening to 2 Step Remix and Walk it Out by DJ Unk. I am also trying not to focus on this elderly lady sitting caddy corner to me and she is freaking me out a little because she keeps looking at me.
I should probably actually making more progress on the LOADS of homework that I have to do this weekend and that are due next Wednesday and Thursday. And I keep forgetting that I have Monday off because the school system is closed due to Columbus Day. But I guess it's because I'm not used to having Mondays off. And I am half way through the long stretch before my next break. We don't have a fall break like a lot of colleges so I am stuck in a 1 month and half of college classes with no break. I had no motivation today to do as much as I could have. And right now, I think I have answered one more question on my IRIS Module that I need to do. Anyways, the main theme of this blog is because I need to Walk it Out a lot more...in terms of exercising and watching what I eat. I stepped on the scale on Sunday morning with my clothes on and it was at a number that I have never seen from me standing on the scale EVER! And of course as we were sitting waiting for church to start I was sharing my heart to my mom and like just really hard because I know I should not weigh this much. And I try to watch what I eat and I feel like it does no good. But she told me I need to find a time where I can weigh myself consistently. Probably in the mornings after my shower. Because usually I do not eat breakfeast before then unless its like a Saturday or someday I don't have to be at school. But it's really hard to do the 30 minute of exercising when you are taking 18 hours of classes, have 3-4 projects due in the next month, working 12-16 hours a week at work, trying to sleep, and trying to fit in a personal life. Even though I do have to say that Garrett has been really good through this. He knows when I am stressed and he knows what to ask me what is wrong. And he actually came over yesterday and we went walking around my neighbrohood for like 40 minutes. So that was nice. And we went walking on Sunday at the park. Maybe I can actually like start to feel like I can do that when I'm not having so much work to do. But I definitely need to start looking good for my bikini for my Hawaiian cruise. Even before that if I go to the beach at some point before the cruise!
So now, I'm at a kindergarten placement and on my first day, one of my children threw up to welcome me to Kindergarten. Not only that, my teacher was not expecting me. But besides that it seems like the children are getting sick often and we had 2 check out on Monday. One checked out with a 99.9 fever and the other checked out with a 102.1 fever. So yeah...just praying I don't get sick. I'm trying to get my rest that I need to. Then my friend at school here had symptoms of the flu. Hopefully my flu shot will work! haha! =]
Anyways, I should go because I don't need my dad to forget me this week like he did 2 weeks ago because I did not ride in with him so I need to go meet him downstairs. Well, maybe I'll try and update more than once a month or once every 2 months! =] Let's Walk it out and 2 step it....4, 3, 2,2, 2 step! =]

A New Week...

Today I started my internship, which in a way is part of my ECE 3661 class at school, which is classroom management. I have been placed at a Pre-K school for regular ed and also for students with special needs. Today was a good day, minus that I only got 5 hours of sleep because I have been used to staying up late. But I took a 15-30 minute worth cat nap, so that was nice and very well deserved. haha. =]

My to-do list is about 7 items long right now. I wrote my letter to my parents and now I'm almost done with my culture quilt for ESOL. Then I have to read in every single one of my classes and then finish up some math homework that is due tomorrow at 5:30. ACK! =/ But I'm almost done with that. I am not looking forward to this semester right now. I don't feel like I can get all this stuff done. But I guess like everybody is telling me, don't worry, trust God and everything. And I am trying to do it on my own, but I can't do it right now all my own and so I guess I am going to have to trust him and believe that everything will be ok. I'll post pictures of random things when I can.

This past weekend, I went to a wedding, and it was great. A very relaxed mood and just enjoyable. And I will try to post three pictures when I get them. Right now I'm off to finish drawing my last two squares of my culture quilt and then to color! yay! =]

Overwhelmed...Oh boy....

I am so overwhelmed with school and it is...THE 1ST OFFICIAL DAY OF CLASS FOR ME!! How horrible?!?! I started the education program at Georgia State and I knew it would not be an easy program...but I did not think I have have a tension headache on the first day of classes. I mean my 2 syllabi from my classes today are both 10-13 pages each!! O.M.G.!! Wow...
Then to top that off, I went to Wal-Mart to get some poster board and markers and I got back to the section and was talking to Garrett and I go, "OMG! I don't have my keys!!" Luckily, my sister came to my rescue and hadn't started on her way to church and she made a pit stop to give me my spare key! yay! =]

I think a lot of it is that I have these projects to do and there are like 6 for each class and I know that most of them have a later date...but it is still overwhelming thinking I have to do this all for one class...I am all ready for Christmas break...

Besides that, I am getting to know some people in my classes that I have not met before and some that I have had a summer class or spring semester class with a little better. With how Georgia State does their program, we stick together the rest of the 2 years of college, so that will be good. Maybe I will make some friends...haha! =] I am sad though because one of my friends that I made is in the traditional certification so I am not going to have any classes with her...='[

This weekend will be a busy one for me....I am babysitting and then I am going to my friend Jamie's wedding, even though she is already married but she got married down in Costa Rica, because that is where her hubby was (lucky...=]) and then she is having the States Wedding, which means that it will just make official for the U.S. And then I will be baby sitting a 14 month old that I have baby sat 2 times already and I am looking forward to it. She is a handful but a mostly calm baby. Then I have to do a culture quilt project for my ESOL class and then I'm looking forward to my music memior that I have to do...I have this blossoming idea in my head and I will post pictures of these projects as I work on them and get done with them.

I think that is all for today....I'll post probably sometime next week as I try and make progres...I have two more new education classes tomorrow and am already overwhelmed thinking about it and then I have to start my internship on Monday, the 24th...yay!

One week...

So I have one week until I start my fall semester. I am excited, but I am nervous at the same time. I don't know what is expected of me and so the unknown makes me nervous. Talking to my boyfriend we have both realized I have a BIG fear of the unknown. I am not sure as to why I have this fear or where it came from, but it definitely happened. haha. But I just need to keep my eyes on the goal and to keep asking for strength and not to be nervous. I think also some of it is that I will have to teach a lesson to Pre-K kids and I have never done this and then my supervisor for my group will be watching me and I am worried that they will say I am not a good fit to be a teacher.

Anyways..this past weekend was a great time and especially Saturday. My boyfriend and I did our all first day date. We drove up to Helen to go tubing down the Hooch, which is only supposed to take an hour and half from my house, but I think it took us 2 hours to get up there because we made 5 stops on the way looking for shoes to wear while tubing. haha. But once we got up there we changed and it was a lot of fun. I was a little mad at first when we started to go down the river because Garrett was not there with me next to me and the whole point was to go down the river together. haha. And there were plenty of rocks to get stuck on while going down the river...and because of all the people, a 1.5 hour trip down the river took like 2 hours. haha. But it was definitely teamwork and we made it and had fun laughing and being dorky at the same time. But there were some drunk people tubing and one of them said "I don't understand why we couldn't bring my cooler on the river...I'm pissed that I'm sober."I found this hilarious, but I guess because I was having fun and I just couldn't understand why you would want to be drunk going down the river. But I am definitely looking forward to September 12th when the Singles from my church are going tubing down Tocca River. Maybe it will be smoother. And I have one picture from when we were down tubing and cleaned up and walking around Helen. We went to a really cute little wedding chapel and I'll put more pictures up later, but here is one. Once his camera charges and he uploads them, I will get the others and post them. We both for our first time made a little picture strip and we only liked certain ones. haha. But it happens.

Anyways, that is the picture, and I think it is time for me to go to bed. I have to go get my last textbook for the fall semester. And also I found out that I have around 23 pairs of shoes which include flip flops. haha.

I GOT ACCEPTED!!!

So yesterday I found out I GOT ACCEPTED INTO THE COLLEGE OF EDUCATION FOR A DUAL CERTIFICATION!!!!

I am so happy and so thankful. All I can say is over the past year and half I have come a long way and this is a way of saying you are doing well! Everything seems to be going okay right now. I finished Education class on Thursday and afterwards we had some food left over so we went to the park and gave some food to them. Monday is the last day of my IT class. And then July 29th is the last day of my Math class. And then it is onto the fall semester and onto me working and getting even closer to my degree in Education. How exciting?

And my Education teacher said we would be foolish to not get a Ph.D in Education, but I'm planning on getting my masters and that is probably as far as I will want to go. I don't think that I want to go any farther...I think doing 6 years of school at once will be enough for me!

Also, my boyfriend came home today!!!! =] I was soo happy to see him! We went to Steak n' Shake and had a late late lunch/ early early dinner. Then we went to Wal-Mart and walked around and I bought new sheets!!! hehe!! They are soo cute. And I resisted buying pens and pencils...I have so many that I could probably give a pencil to about 3 classrooms and still have some left over. So me resisting pens and pencils is a big step for me.

My work schedule this upcoming week is nice. I work Monday and Friday 7-11 pm and then Thursday from 6-10 pm. I have Saturday off because I have to do a preschool thing and then I have an engagement party for my boyfriend's ex roommate. And I have never been to an engagement party so this should be interesting. Then we have my friend Jamie, her wedding in the US and she got married July 11th in Costa Rica (don't we all wish we could do that) so I'm looking forward to that.

Anyways...it's late and I am ready to fall asleep on the computer....haha! I'll write later...going to Braves game tomorrow and seeing All American Rejects! =]

Yummy Yummy...CUPCAKES!!!!

So here are pictures for my quest to make cupcakes for tomorrow!!!

That is a big bowl of mix right there!! 2 boxes!!=]

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Here is the final product!! YUMMY!! =]

Thoughts of relief

Today was my math test. It was not as bad as I was thinking it could be but I don't think I did as well as I have on the other tests, but that is okay. I have gotten a 91 and 97 on my other two tests. So even if I get a B on this test, I will still have a good test average and then that means I will still have a good average in the class. I got a 28 out of 25 on my notebook, which is 3 bonus points because she liked the colors I used for my chips in two of my math homework problems. So that helps out in the homework calculation of my grade. After we took our math test we had a break and then we covered one other section and got out early. So that was nice, but then I had to go to the One Stop Shop to get my form filled out for my insurance company to receive the good student discount...and that was a trip in itself.

The times that I have been to the One Stop Shop, the people there are usually nice and it does not really bother me. But today, I had to stand in a line that was 10 people deep and then when I got up there I explained to the guy that I needed to turn this form in an he asked me if I had filled this form out and I said no and then I told him that the lady across the hall told me to stand in this line and he shook his head. To me it was a complete waste of time for me to stand in a line to fill out a piece of paper and to come back and pick it up on Monday. One things I do not like is that their communication is really off. And it frustrates me how one thing can't be communicated across the line. I think that is one reason why we need to keep lines of communication open even though we have all this technology and we can email people and text people, but we still need to make sure the communication is open.

But besides that...I feel like there has been a huge brick lifted off of me because I got my math test done, education test, and now I'm almost done with my education paper. I am super ready to make my cupcakes and I will post a picture of how my cupcakes look in a different post and I am super excited because that means that the stress is down to zero. Now all I have to look forward to is possibly seeing Harry Potter, going to the Braves game, and waiting to hear when my boyfriend comes back from Michigan and I will get to see him...so that is all. And I'll post the picture after I'm done.

Almost done...

Today was the next to last day for my Education class. I am happy but I think at the same time a little sad. But I am glad that one of the three classes I am taking will be over and maybe I can relax some. My education test today was great because he let us decide if we wanted to take it by ourselves or in a group and a lot of us decided to do the group. We only missed one question so we got a 97...but he but two number 4's on there so we will probably end up with a 100. And I did my field experience presentation on visting an African American Pentecostal church. Just have to do the paper now which should not take long because I have the thoughts just flowing through my mind when I think about it. So hopefully tomorrow when I actually sit down to write it, I will still have the thoughts flowing through. haha. =] I have a math test tomorrow and after that it is all downhill from there. I am making cupcakes tomorrow for my Education class because we are having a last class party to just relax some. So that should be good.

I am looking forward to this weekend because my boyfriend, Garrett, is coming back from Michigan and I can't wait to see him when he gets back. Then I am going to the Braves game with my sister and a mutual friend, and then one of my co workers from the daycare I used to work out and afterwards get this...ALL AMERICAN REJECTS concert! How awesome...all for the price of 8 BUCKS!!!! =] Awesome huh? And then I will get to relax some without worrying about doing a lot of homework. Greatness!!!

So I think I might start adding the favorite song of the day or week. Right now, my favorite song is "I've Got Friends" by Manchester Orchestra. I heard it from my sister's CD and I liked it and I'm not quite sure...maybe because I know this situation and it's not fun. Here's the link for the music video on Youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRUOB3Ztv-Y&feature=fvst Anyways...I think right now it is favorite song of the past two days. If I could download a song by Zac Brown Band then I would be in heaven but I'm watching how much I spend and I am not allowed to use my debit card except for gas and MARTA card.

Anyways....I think it is almost time for bed. So this is it for today. Here is a picture of my boyfriend and I from this past weekend.

Howdy!

Hello to all!
This is my 2nd try at making a blog. I don't know how long this will last...but I have wanted to keep one up but I am not sure. This is for my IT 2010 class. The title of my blog "Daydreams of a Southern Girl" comes from the song DJ Drama Day Dreaming feat. TI, Akon, and Snoop Dogg. But anyways...I'm a Southern Girl...born and raised in the south so I figured it fit. And probably half of the stuff on here will be stuff that I think about during the day...probably while I am in Education or Math class this summer. haha. Anyways...I have an Education test tomorrow and a Math test Wednesday and an Education paper due Thursday...so right now...I'm going to split since I work at 7 and I need to get busy. Anyways...I'll write more later!
Bye!