So many times in life, you have struggles and you have rough times. It feels like mine have been spaced from February 2008 and then in May of 2008 and then in November 2009. I am ready to move on and to let my past be my past. I don't want to feel like a bondage to my past. I have been realizing over the past couple of days I want to be set free from my past, but at the same time I felt like that gave me a reason when I was upset or when I was angry. But if I let everything go, then I will be fine. But I have this fear deep down inside of me that even though I want to be set free, that I will never truly be set free. I feel like that somehow and someway, my past will come back to haunt me haunt me and I don't want that. I want to leave the past in the past and I don't want it to come back. I found this quote on one of my friend's facebooks:
"Dont cling to your past. Ever. Dont cling to the comfort it may ensure or hide in the security it seems to promise.. for there is always, always a reason your past never made it to your future."
And this is what I want to happen. I am hoping that I will be able to express this to the person I need to this week and its not the person that hurt me in November. So anyways. That is what I'm wanting to do in the New Year. I want to leave my past behind me and be free and to work on myself as a person!
So here's to 2010! =]
