"Ain't no reason in running after something already gone..."

This title of the post describes how I feel completely. This past month, has been one where I think deep down inside I wanted it to work and I was willing to overlook everything that might have some signifiance to me. And then next thing I know, we are calling it quits and just going to be friends. Going to be friends are the hardest things I ever wanted. Because for some reason I still want to try and fix it. I want to make it better. And I know part of it is because when I first met him, I was receiving what God gave me. I was waiting on him and I wasn't thinking about the future. Then I started saying well "what if..." and that got me all off. And I had peace the Sunday after he broke up with, when he called me, and now I am getting back to that point again. I know it won't take long, but I want to be at peace. One of the quotes I am applying to myself right now: "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." I'll learn and I'll remember. Right now, I have a heart that cared and lived and trusted and saw that there are nice guys out there and that I will be able to get back out there. And I have pictures and bears and everything else to put away, as a lesson for my daughter (if I have one) one day. Many things come out of break ups. They are the best when you don't hate each other. I have so much to do in the next couple of weeks. I have to apply for jobs, take comprehensive exams, and prepare for graduation and moving out. And this week, I have a job interview! I was very amazed! I just click apply for a job and then they emailed me and offered me a job interview if I was NOT under contract with another school system and I'm not. So we will see. It will be a good practice. Even if it pans out it will be good. Well I am off to bed. It is almost 11:00 pm in Georgia and it has been one day...